Stuff in my head

Just start

That’s what I keep hearing in my head.  But I haven’t.  So much to plan, to figure out, to understand, all resulting in a bit fat nothing actually happening.  I’m sick of it.  Tired of being the uber responsible one who thinks through and plans for every possible pitfall, has a contingency for every possible risk, and who lets dreams go easily.  I’ve watched so many fall by the wayside because being responsible was so much more important than doing something I actually want to do.  Something that will actually make me happy (even though having a clean house makes me very happy, cleaning does not make me happy).  So I’m serious all the time.  I’ve heard it for years.  I look upset, unapproachable, just plain serious.  Honestly, it’s a huge drag.  But if I do what I like, what makes me happy, what will people think?

Well, it’s a new day.  I can’t control what other people think and really, that usually has more to do with them than me.  Other people’s expectations can be awesome, have driven me to many accomplishments, to be a better person, to success in some ways.  But I can’t live my life worrying about them all the time.  There’s still that place inside me that knows there is so much more I have to do, that God wants me to do.  So many more ways that I can live out my purpose. I can be an every better version of me.  I’m ready!  Now.  No more when….(fill in the blank) happens. I have so much in my head I want to say, to share, to do. So this is it.  This is the start.  Stay tuned Lisa.

 

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